Sero Overdrive
Finally I’m breaking free again. I’ve gained 35lbs. in the past six weeks, finally leveled off at 160. Despite one disastrous relapse last week, I’ve been essentially “clean and sober” for the past six weeks. Besides that little three day ordeal with the Xanax bars and the Norco 10s. Oops.
Feeling pretty much worthless these days since I haven’t had a job since mid-August. I read a lot of books, tap out a lot of nonsense on the keyboard, and go to movies (Oh my God the new Resident Evil: Extinction is so fucking good, I loved it!
I never drink alcohol, though some kid was kind enough to slip me a few baby-blue Valiums this morning while we both waited in the doctors office. Just enough to give me a slight sense of well being, on top of the mild euphoric feelings I’ve been living with thanks to my increased level of SSRIs.
I need to go find a job, but I’m trying to wait for the discolored, mashed pulp of my face to heal before I go for any interviews, which should just be a few more days. I really need to get back on my feet, get on the all as they say.
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